Just another one of those days...

Sigh... its another one of THOSE days... thats right.. u know what im talking bout... one of THOSE days...

those days when u feel ur alone in the world: when ud probably appreciate a foe's mis-directed attention just as much as a friend's well-directed intentions... possibly even more... when u know everyone's so preoccupied with their own world to care about ur own... not their fault.. everyone's got a life to live and improve... but yet u keep wondering how everyone else manages to stay so happy... even though it may be just on the surface...

and all of a sudden u come to the realization that u dont know what ur doing in life: why you're doing what you're currently doing.. why you arent doing something else in life... its not that youre not suited to it... its just that you keep wondering isnt it about damn time you moved on to better things?? things that u see ex-colleagues and former classmates have achieved about what seems like decades ago.. but u just cant seem to be in sight of... and then you wonder... what am i lacking??

and then you wonder why you are here: why this place, of all places... was it a mistake coming here? to a place where you've never seen anyone so materialistic in your entire life... where ppl judge you on your expensive tastes, as opposed to what you think, what you say, and what you do... where on the most intimate level people are just as unaccepting of you as you could never imagine... for reasons unbeknownst to you...

and you come to the conclusion that maybe.. just maybe.. you dont belong here.. you dont fit in: and you consider options that help you leave... no, youre not running away like a coward... you just want to move on to greener pastures.. but what if the fields there are just as barren as they are now? what if its worse?

and then you look inwards again: maybe its just better to be a bastard like everyone else you meet.. and not give 2 hoots about anyone else around you... sure, you'll make enemies along the way... but atleast you'll be in peace with yourself... saying atleast u had some fun... but then another glance inwards says the exact opposite.. you're not that kind of person... you're better than those you observe... maybe not in every way.. but definitely in some way... and that same inward glance tells you to keep going... that maybe the path you're on isnt as bad as it looks.. sure, it may not seem like the Yellow Brick Road... but still... atleast its not the plank.. so you tell yourself it'll get better... you tell yourself to keep going...


and not to give up...


and to keep the good in... and keep the wrong out... no matter how 'attractive' the 'wrong' options may seem...


so what if youre alone?? if you are, people obviously subconsciously believe you can do better than them... wouldnt wanna prove em wrong on that, now wud we?


and sometimes... just writing it out helps...


and also, that sometimes.. just Sometimes...



It's OK to be a bastard to others...every once-in-a-while... it purges the devil within...


but dont let it kill the person inside...

Welcome back to School!!!

Well, so thats the story of how I got to Switzerland... the next issue: what now???

Some basic info about my MBA programme:
- its 1 year long
- it comes pre-loaded with a high proportion of Finance.. (Oh Joy!!!)
- it requires an internship period from June to August at any company in Switzerland or abroad
- there are just 34 students!!!!

Here's what I confirmed within a few days of my arrival here: Switzerland is BLOODY EXPENSIVE!!!! The only folks in my programme not freaked out by the money value of things are the Americans and the Europeans.. n that covers about 90% of my class demographics.. not counting the 10 indians and myself...

The courses arent bad at all, though.. Having never being formally educated in business, I'm actually learning quite alot... here's a breakdown of what I think of some of my courses so far.. if any of my MBA classmates read this, they might agree... if they dont, well, who gives a shit, its MY blog!! My stage!!! My thoughts!!! (Okkayyy, gettin a bit carried away here...):

- Finance 1 (Accounting & Controlling): Seemed like all this course required was SHIT LOADS of reading!! and alotta falling asleep in class... until we got the project.. now THAT was a bit better.. i guess i've always been the kind of person who learns more by doing rather than sitting and listening.. so this project involved analyzing financial reports, doing some really basic calculations.. and finally, analyzing why so-and-so move boosted up the stock price of the company by x percent... Yup.. Interesting, eh??

- International Management: I actually found this subject really easy to understand... equipped with TONNES of examples of companies expanding overseas n the kind of problems they faced... was kinda good overall.. except for the fact that the professor couldnt control discussions when students started asking questions.. and that really helped considering we have some classmates who just DONT KNOW WHEN TO STOP!!!

- Finance 2: Stocks!!! Futures!!! Options!!! Lotsa Math!!! what else can I possibly add about this subject, except for it provided the platform for my first argument with a classmate here.. officially uncovered the Bitch of the Millenium among our classmates.. yes, yes, she got to me in an even worse way than 'She-who-irritates-me-greatly'...

- Strategic Management: This is a module that involved almost NO teaching!!! Instead, we had to work on case studies for EVERY class, and present discuss them ourselves... was good in some ways.. intolerable in others...

- Business Law: currently going thru this module right now... infact, i should be researching stuff for our group project, but instead here I am writing entertaining material for you!! :) the classes are absolutely boring!!! the lecturer speaks in a way that reminds me of Jim Carrey in Ace Ventura, and there's barely any teaching.. he just comes in and starts discussing examples.. n he's SHIT scary.. approaches students like he's approaching a witness on a stand.. well, he IS a lawyer, after all..

Aside from the subjects, there's been loads of other stuff going on, which I think i'll write about later (i should get on the research for now):

- Change of apartment..
- the finding of 'Bastard of the year'... I think he should TOTALLY get together with 'Bitch of the Year' and outdo the Hitlers!!!
- Booooooorrrriiinnnnggggg Christmas vacations
- How fragile egos can be in an MBA programme
- searching for internships/jobs..
- and Loads More...

so stay tuned, Folks!!!